January 27, 2021 “What Sustains You?” This was a writing prompt from a Freaks Books Club that I was in with artists Rene and Manny Rivera. April 4, 2019. “The sun in her glory of self and the knowledge that doesn’t hurt the knowing that family runs deep and the state of being alone is contingent upon doubt that you are enough. Knowing that the food comes from the ground where the ground is above, that things are changing and that I am holding myself accountable to what matters to me and what keeps me happy, an ultimatum that bares no consequence and perhaps even when the coughing hurts knowing that I have breathe to dig into the capillaries is also what sustains me – the relationships, there is a word to describe the labor and value associated albeit arbitrary and fictitious equations to the living – a type of performance that requires presence and attention to detail, sharp and slightly sinister – the ability to wake and behave according to my own rules the mountains in the sky their shapes reminding me to continue.”
March 31, 2020
What makes us lie?
Why do we lie?
What are we afraid of should we really say how we feel?
Ego takes us away from the present moment.
Touch yourself for yourself only.
Don’t watch pornography.
If you need to, watch feminist porn instead.
Who gets to be creative right now?
Bake as many pies as you can feed the world.
Thank you Sam Cooke
and the black woman who gave birth to him
and the black man who helped
drawing connections
to corners
and where i find refuge
putting the lives of indigenous black brown asian bodies first in this reorientation of life what does that sound like?
Alphabetically in America :
Alabama
Alaska
Arizona
Arkansas
California
Colorado
Connecticut
Delaware
Florida
Georgia
Hawaii
Idaho
Illinois
Indiana
Iowa
Kansas
Kentucky
Louisiana
Maine
Maryland
Massachusetts
Michigan
Minnesota
Mississippi
Missouri
Montana
Nebraska
Nevada
New Hampshire
New Jersey
New Mexico
New York
North Carolina
North Dakota
Ohio
Oklahoma
Oregon
Pennsylvania
Rhode Island
South Carolina
South Dakota
Tennessee
Texas
Utah
Vermont
Virginia
Washington
West Virginia
Wisconsin
Wyoming
WHAT A DAY. Spend almost 2 hours on the phone with my uncle, who told me to make amends with my best friend and to stop sending money to Nigeria. He doesn’t understand what I am doing but for the most part, not many do and maybe I need to start being better at being okay with that. Then I hopped on the phone with Denzel Rodrigez, also known as the Finance Geek who helped me in more ways that I really know how to express right now. I feel like I need to learn how to create separate sections on WordPress so that I can link different areas of information together. Like this link to an application for women entrepreneurs to apply for funding. And another section for book recommendations. And now, because it’s 318am, a quick slice of joy. Sleepy time.